Monday, November 16, 2009

people need to quit running their fuckin' mouth about my family. back the fuck off and shut the fuck up.
"Your shirt looks hella wet tho!" Geez the lingos today are hella ugly! What is going on in todays society?!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

In two weeks from now it would be your 2 year death anniversary... That day will haunt me the rest of my life... I miss you so much Julian... I love you. <3

Sunday, November 1, 2009

i feel like im not appreciated with anything i do.... is that the reason why i've felt so down? i want to see a change in things.. but how? ]=

Sunday, October 25, 2009

My Soldier.mp3

SEN10RS WON SPIRIT WEEK!!! YAYUHHHHH. ONE-OH YOU KNOW, YOU STUPID HOE! HAHAHA jk. AND WE WON THE HOMECOMING GAME VS. OUR RIVAL IRVINGTON! 21-0! WE SMASHED ON THEM!! so far SEN10R year seems to be GREAT! except for the stress i went through, but i should get over it.

102409 the funktion was CRACKIN! i expected more people to come buhh its okay i guess. it was H-O-T HOT! hella hard to breath! the windows were fogged up from the body heat. people were sweating & gettin there freak on from left to right. LOL. gross but its true! Kevin finally experienced a funktion! from the looks of it, I think he had fun. hahaha.

102509 HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAY RAEMON FARIN! [: HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT ONE & ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!! YOU TRUELY DESERVE IT!! THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT FRIEND TO ME! YOUR THE BEEEEEEEEST YO! LOOOOOOOVE YA<3

you're starting to say im not a "true friend" when i've been there for you through THICK AND THIN. do you not realize WHY i dont even wanna talk with you anymore.. i have to put up with the same shit ALL THE TIME. nothing ever changes. so why should i have to deal with it? i love you with all my heart, but sometimes you just gotta solve things out on your own. cas you cant always lean on my shoulder. i honestly think its hilarious that you say im not acting like a true friend. WHO was the one who has always been there for you when you cry at night?! WHO was the one who had to give you the BEST advice i could when your dumbass of a boyfriend would hurt YOU?! I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU REGARDLESS. and you say that im not being a true friend to you. thats a bunch of bullshit and you know it! i dont want you to make the decision of choosing between your bitch ass boyfriend or me. so ima just keep on doing what i do. if you gotta problem with it then either TALK TO ME ABOUT IT or DEAL WITH IT. its as simple as that.

My Soldier.mp3 i seriously think that this song is like my theme song. everytime I feel like the lowest person alive or whatever, I just play this song. its makes me smile and appreciate the things I do. LISTEN TO IT IF YA NEVER DID! [: "You are strong, strong as a soldier. Even when winds are tough you'll always keep it together. You are strong, strong as a soldier. I know you'll get through anythingggg. Cas your strong, strong, strong as a soldier!!!" -AJ Rafael

Until then, One Love<3

Take Care!

-Alexis<3

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

New Girl.mp3

the New Boyz album has been stuck on my head for the LONGEST time. hahaha. I must admit its a pretty good album. I only like 3 songs they have though. I CANNOT stop playing them! oh well. they are SEMI-CUTE! hahaha! ;]

Today is Julian's birthday. I cried this morning. I hella miss him. 21 though babe! drrrrrrink up with Jesus! jk! keep watching over me. i love you<3

so its the SEN10Rs day tomorrow for homecoming! SEN10R CIRCUS though. it may be a whack theme, but TRUST ME we really do RUN THIS SHOW ;] gotta wake up SUPER DUPER EARLY cas i gots ta be at school at 5:30 AM. i aint trippin! its my last year in high school!! i gotta go all out feel me?! hahaha. i can't wait for the homecoming rally! we gotta make it CRAAAAAACKIN! COME ON SEN10RS WE GOTTA STEP UP OUR GAME!!


New Girl.mp3 one of the 3 favorite songs from the Skinny Jeanz & A Mic album[: la-la-la-la-la I CAN BE YOUR NEW GIRL! ;] jkkkkk. i gots ta sleep now if im tryna wake up super EARLY!

take care<3

Alexis<3

Monday, October 19, 2009

No More.mp3

101709 Angie's cotillion. it was fun! made me miss the old days so much. it sorta felt like a reunion. the 8th grade fam. i noticed how much EVERYONE changed. maybe its for the better? but who knows? i glad we all got together that night for Angie. happy 18th ange. <3

101909. two days from now its going to be Julian's 21st birthday... only him to be celebrating it with GOD & everyone else in heaven. this year is about to be Julian's 2 years since he died. and honestly its affected me so much. i feel empty inside. like i can't rely on anyone anymore. it hurts. i wish i could have said something before he left. a GOODBYE or HEY! I MISS YOU! but i didnt... the crazy part apart of this whole experience with Julian's death... is the morning i found out he died, i called him. i woke up around 6 am and called him... i dont know why. i just did. only to find a few minutes later that he had passed away... and it struck my heart and ripped it into two. i just miss Julian so much. always telling me how his phone is broken, or how his mic was broken so he couldnt make a new song. haha. man oh man. keep lookin' down on me please?

I honestly think im losing one of my bestest friends... we dont talk. you stopped caring. WHY? all cas of your STUPID ASS BITCH OF A BOYFRIEND. I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE HIM WITH A PASSION. i dont know why your still with him when he's SO direspectful. but whatever. its your choice. i tried to help you out so many times.. when he HURTS you once again, BEST BELIEVE i WONT be there for you... I PROMISE THAT. im tired of you always leaning on me when he hurts you. you KNOW that i helped you with all i can, you just DONT CARE to listen. so IM DONE. we barely talk anyways, and you didnt even bother to talk to me at Angie's party. so it doesnt matter. i guess your done too.

COTILLION IS BACK... ONCE AGAIN. -_______-" my parents need to start making up their mind maaaaaaan!

No More.mp3 to me, the song is saying NO MORE HURTING. Tired of all the games happening. blah blah blah. i just wish things will start getting better. cas right now it feels like its all going downhill ]: