all nighter?!

sooooo i guess i am pulling an all nighter tonight! aaaaand around 8 ima get ready to go to VALLEJO! parrrrrrty hardy with my party buddddddy MELANIE! we are going to see Misty and the gang all over again! shoot i havent seen them in 2 weeks and im hella stoked! i still have to do flyer runs & sell my presales! [: i cant wait for the next funktion. so thanksgiving was okay... i went to OAKLEY, some city passing pittsburg. it was my kuya brian's birthday so my mom decided for us to go there, since my other cousins are in reno... shooooot and for black friday i woke up dummy late! like 2PM. and didnt go shopping until 5pm. didnt really get a lot buhh spent all my money. -_____-" i still have enough for bart tho! [: teehee. well im bored and got 4 hours to entertain myself. byeee!

BACK & READY TO PROMOTE!

so i got home from reno around 7:15-ish today. and im light weight tired. ive been online since i got home & i saw the flyer for the NEW UPCOMING BAYFUNKTION TEEN EVENT! its called NAUGHTY OR NICE and will be at Abyss Night Club in Sunnyvale! i hella cant wait cas ITS MY BIRTHDAY BASH! so you guys better go! and if you need flyers or presales you can get at me! [: shooooot i feel like ive been hella MIA with promoting since World Of Dance 2008. but its cool! im meeting new people & get to see my promoters again! LOL. ohhhh how i miss all of them! haha. so DJ KEVIN stopped by my house and dropped off HELLA flyers! hahaha. and im catching up with JAYPEE and GRANT! i hella cant wait for this teen event[: jaypee says the only reason im stoked is cas its my birthday bash & im on the flyer. pshhhhh hahaha. that loser. and i told him that the only reason he likes the flyer is cas im on it[: HAHAHA. so anyways DECEMBER is about to roll through hella fast! i cant wait. this saturday im going to a partyyyyy in vallejo. next friday i might go to eastridge to promote. and i gotta plan a kickit day with jaypee! cas its almost his birthday[: telly party tho! hahaha youalreadyknow! i cant wait for that shit!


SO IM BACK FROM RENO & IM READY TO PROMOTE!! [:

Gone for vacation?

so today is my dad's 50th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! [: although you may seem hella lame, you know i got maaaaaad love for you. cas if it wasnt for your sperm then i would have never been born. HAHAHA. gross right?! anywho tomorrow i will be going to RENO! what joy. i havent been there in forever. the only thing that sucks about it is that i'm going to be spending Julian's one year stuck in a hotel room. oh well i will be thinking about the NASA HOTEL song then! i barely packed anything and i'm just waiting for the laundry to finish up so i can complete my luggage. and then i have to do my spanish 2 homework and possibly english. shooooot i've been hella lazy when it comes to homework now cas of the weather. the sad cloudy days make me super lazy. well hopefully this vacation will take my mind off a lot. I hope its snowing there too[: i havent seen the snow in forever! well back to packing! hope you all have a safe & fun vacation. and Happy thanksgiving to you and your family<33


so like i said on monday, November 24, 2008, it will be Julian Alexander Nalos's Death Anniversary. its only been ONE YEAR since he has left me. and for some reason i cant cry about it.... i can still remember what i did that day. and 2 days after he died that's when i found out... it still hurts me pretty hard that he's left me. Although i feel that he is gone, i know that he's always with me. he has that special place in my heart that no other guy can ever replace. There were days through out this year when i would cry my eyes out just cas i missed Julian so much. buhh then i would try so hard not to let it get to me. cas he wouldnt like seeing me like that. Sometimes i would call his phone, just to hear his voice. or even play his songs "NASA HOTEL" "ONE OF A KIND" or "ONE I ADORE" those were specifically my favorites. I just wish that i would have talked to him more. waking up the day of November 26, 2007 thinking about Julian, asking myself how he's been... and a few minutes later i find out that he's left without a goodbye. it kills me inside but i cant do anything but deal with it. and even though that you are not here anymore Julian, i want to let you know that i will NEVER forget you. and you'll also be in my heart. best believe that. you STILL mean the whole world to me. yeah i will still have those days when i cry my eyes out buhh its all out of love. one day we will be together and we'll talk for hours and hours about the past, present, and future that lie ahead for us. I LOVE YOU JULIAN ALEXANDER NALOS<33


Rest In Paradise Julian Alexander Nalos<3
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Today

It felt like it was such a slow ass day today... i woke up a little late and just got ready for school. and all the classes were just boring. i d k if its just me. well after that i went to milpitas cas my little sister had an ortho appointment for her braces. and that took daaaays! well it only took like an hour buhh it was the longest hour of my life!! ANYWAYS although i barely know some of the people in misty's entourage from her cotillion, i miss them already! that day was just so much fun. me and edrick are planning on going to frisko sometime. with me, him, melanie, misty, vanessa, and everyone else! whoever is down. me & melanie want to go ICE SKATING! you already know! tryna plan it sometime at the end of december or so. buhh yeah. i cant wait for that. SO i found some more people for my entourage and i just need 4 more guys and 1 more girl? i think thats it. buhh i seriously CAN NOT wait!

Main Reason

so the main reason i basically started this thing is cas i really HATE keeping my feelings inside. and sometimes i feel that there's no one i can turn too. although it seems like i'm not that type of person, trust me, I AM. i stress over the stupidest things and that makes me stress even more. Other than school and friends, there is also my family that i stress about the most. I just want to move out of the house already and be independent. behind closed doors i feel like im someone i'm not. i hate that i cry all the time and theres no one there to have a shoulder to lean on, or tell me that everything is okay. yeah i have my BFFL's but to me i just that they are there for me. yeah, it hurts me but i guess thats the way god wanted me to live my life. i just wish that there's someone who'll always be there. someone who i can call at 3 in the morning cas im having problems, or someone i can talk to when i want to hurt myself or others. everything is just so different now. honestly im not tryna sound all emo or anything, but thats the way my life has been...



i just wish that everything would go back to when i was happy again....

Cotillion in the making!

so i have one year and 2 months until i turn 18. like most filipino girls, i'll be having a Cotillion. being the person i am, i NEED to plan early. cas i hella hate planning things at the very last minute cas i dont need that type of stress. so far i've found some people for my roses and candles. and recently i've been trying to find people to be in my entourage, which are the people who will be dancing choreographed dances with me. the colors i am hoping for are cinderella colors. my entourage will wear baby blue & black, while me and my escort will wear baby blue & white. hella cute right? i am also planning it on being at Milpitas City Hall. i already know that this will be stressful buhh i'll try and act hella chill about it and NO SLACKING OFF! haha. there are hella things i need to do just for this party and i know some of my BFFL's cant wait. they are more excited for my cotillion than their own! LOL. i hope i dont slack off and it'll turn out the way i want it.