Gone for vacation?

so today is my dad's 50th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! [: although you may seem hella lame, you know i got maaaaaad love for you. cas if it wasnt for your sperm then i would have never been born. HAHAHA. gross right?! anywho tomorrow i will be going to RENO! what joy. i havent been there in forever. the only thing that sucks about it is that i'm going to be spending Julian's one year stuck in a hotel room. oh well i will be thinking about the NASA HOTEL song then! i barely packed anything and i'm just waiting for the laundry to finish up so i can complete my luggage. and then i have to do my spanish 2 homework and possibly english. shooooot i've been hella lazy when it comes to homework now cas of the weather. the sad cloudy days make me super lazy. well hopefully this vacation will take my mind off a lot. I hope its snowing there too[: i havent seen the snow in forever! well back to packing! hope you all have a safe & fun vacation. and Happy thanksgiving to you and your family<33


so like i said on monday, November 24, 2008, it will be Julian Alexander Nalos's Death Anniversary. its only been ONE YEAR since he has left me. and for some reason i cant cry about it.... i can still remember what i did that day. and 2 days after he died that's when i found out... it still hurts me pretty hard that he's left me. Although i feel that he is gone, i know that he's always with me. he has that special place in my heart that no other guy can ever replace. There were days through out this year when i would cry my eyes out just cas i missed Julian so much. buhh then i would try so hard not to let it get to me. cas he wouldnt like seeing me like that. Sometimes i would call his phone, just to hear his voice. or even play his songs "NASA HOTEL" "ONE OF A KIND" or "ONE I ADORE" those were specifically my favorites. I just wish that i would have talked to him more. waking up the day of November 26, 2007 thinking about Julian, asking myself how he's been... and a few minutes later i find out that he's left without a goodbye. it kills me inside but i cant do anything but deal with it. and even though that you are not here anymore Julian, i want to let you know that i will NEVER forget you. and you'll also be in my heart. best believe that. you STILL mean the whole world to me. yeah i will still have those days when i cry my eyes out buhh its all out of love. one day we will be together and we'll talk for hours and hours about the past, present, and future that lie ahead for us. I LOVE YOU JULIAN ALEXANDER NALOS<33


Rest In Paradise Julian Alexander Nalos<3
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