My Soldier.mp3

SEN10RS WON SPIRIT WEEK!!! YAYUHHHHH. ONE-OH YOU KNOW, YOU STUPID HOE! HAHAHA jk. AND WE WON THE HOMECOMING GAME VS. OUR RIVAL IRVINGTON! 21-0! WE SMASHED ON THEM!! so far SEN10R year seems to be GREAT! except for the stress i went through, but i should get over it.

102409 the funktion was CRACKIN! i expected more people to come buhh its okay i guess. it was H-O-T HOT! hella hard to breath! the windows were fogged up from the body heat. people were sweating & gettin there freak on from left to right. LOL. gross but its true! Kevin finally experienced a funktion! from the looks of it, I think he had fun. hahaha.

102509 HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAY RAEMON FARIN! [: HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT ONE & ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!! YOU TRUELY DESERVE IT!! THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT FRIEND TO ME! YOUR THE BEEEEEEEEST YO! LOOOOOOOVE YA<3

you're starting to say im not a "true friend" when i've been there for you through THICK AND THIN. do you not realize WHY i dont even wanna talk with you anymore.. i have to put up with the same shit ALL THE TIME. nothing ever changes. so why should i have to deal with it? i love you with all my heart, but sometimes you just gotta solve things out on your own. cas you cant always lean on my shoulder. i honestly think its hilarious that you say im not acting like a true friend. WHO was the one who has always been there for you when you cry at night?! WHO was the one who had to give you the BEST advice i could when your dumbass of a boyfriend would hurt YOU?! I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU REGARDLESS. and you say that im not being a true friend to you. thats a bunch of bullshit and you know it! i dont want you to make the decision of choosing between your bitch ass boyfriend or me. so ima just keep on doing what i do. if you gotta problem with it then either TALK TO ME ABOUT IT or DEAL WITH IT. its as simple as that.

My Soldier.mp3 i seriously think that this song is like my theme song. everytime I feel like the lowest person alive or whatever, I just play this song. its makes me smile and appreciate the things I do. LISTEN TO IT IF YA NEVER DID! [: "You are strong, strong as a soldier. Even when winds are tough you'll always keep it together. You are strong, strong as a soldier. I know you'll get through anythingggg. Cas your strong, strong, strong as a soldier!!!" -AJ Rafael

Until then, One Love<3

Take Care!

-Alexis<3

New Girl.mp3

the New Boyz album has been stuck on my head for the LONGEST time. hahaha. I must admit its a pretty good album. I only like 3 songs they have though. I CANNOT stop playing them! oh well. they are SEMI-CUTE! hahaha! ;]

Today is Julian's birthday. I cried this morning. I hella miss him. 21 though babe! drrrrrrink up with Jesus! jk! keep watching over me. i love you<3

so its the SEN10Rs day tomorrow for homecoming! SEN10R CIRCUS though. it may be a whack theme, but TRUST ME we really do RUN THIS SHOW ;] gotta wake up SUPER DUPER EARLY cas i gots ta be at school at 5:30 AM. i aint trippin! its my last year in high school!! i gotta go all out feel me?! hahaha. i can't wait for the homecoming rally! we gotta make it CRAAAAAACKIN! COME ON SEN10RS WE GOTTA STEP UP OUR GAME!!


New Girl.mp3 one of the 3 favorite songs from the Skinny Jeanz & A Mic album[: la-la-la-la-la I CAN BE YOUR NEW GIRL! ;] jkkkkk. i gots ta sleep now if im tryna wake up super EARLY!

take care<3

Alexis<3

No More.mp3

101709 Angie's cotillion. it was fun! made me miss the old days so much. it sorta felt like a reunion. the 8th grade fam. i noticed how much EVERYONE changed. maybe its for the better? but who knows? i glad we all got together that night for Angie. happy 18th ange. <3

101909. two days from now its going to be Julian's 21st birthday... only him to be celebrating it with GOD & everyone else in heaven. this year is about to be Julian's 2 years since he died. and honestly its affected me so much. i feel empty inside. like i can't rely on anyone anymore. it hurts. i wish i could have said something before he left. a GOODBYE or HEY! I MISS YOU! but i didnt... the crazy part apart of this whole experience with Julian's death... is the morning i found out he died, i called him. i woke up around 6 am and called him... i dont know why. i just did. only to find a few minutes later that he had passed away... and it struck my heart and ripped it into two. i just miss Julian so much. always telling me how his phone is broken, or how his mic was broken so he couldnt make a new song. haha. man oh man. keep lookin' down on me please?

I honestly think im losing one of my bestest friends... we dont talk. you stopped caring. WHY? all cas of your STUPID ASS BITCH OF A BOYFRIEND. I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE HIM WITH A PASSION. i dont know why your still with him when he's SO direspectful. but whatever. its your choice. i tried to help you out so many times.. when he HURTS you once again, BEST BELIEVE i WONT be there for you... I PROMISE THAT. im tired of you always leaning on me when he hurts you. you KNOW that i helped you with all i can, you just DONT CARE to listen. so IM DONE. we barely talk anyways, and you didnt even bother to talk to me at Angie's party. so it doesnt matter. i guess your done too.

COTILLION IS BACK... ONCE AGAIN. -_______-" my parents need to start making up their mind maaaaaaan!

No More.mp3 to me, the song is saying NO MORE HURTING. Tired of all the games happening. blah blah blah. i just wish things will start getting better. cas right now it feels like its all going downhill ]:

Closer To My Dreams.mp3

BAYFUNKTION ENT. IS BACK IN FRI$KO F. BAAAAAABY! im super STOKED! i know its about to be hella crackin! i rather ditch Homecoming to go to a funktion[:



Closer To My Dreams.mp3 favorite songggggg. its really inspirational!

Return of the Mack.mp3

so it REALLY has been a long ass time since i wrote in this blog! i just been so damn busy or tired! FEEDBACK! SUMMER '09 was SOMEWHAT one of the best summers i've had in my lifetime. nothing can top SUMMER '05 though. anyways, i met some of the most amazing people. the Summer School Faaam! [: we would just kickit all the time after summer school and just chill. hella funnnnn. A. MTB! was the bestest shit thats ever happened. Alexis, Melanie, Teddy, & Bianca. hands down we're the most REALEST people you'll ever meet in your life. from going to Great America together to BBQ'ing at the house, we always manage to have a fun time. just how life is, there are a lot of UPs&DOWNs. but stuff i won't even mention.


PRESENT DAY!

SEN10R year had started! so far i have easy classes!

1st block: Weight Training
2nd block: Leadership
3rd block: Intro To Statistics
4th block: Sports Therapy

easy right? CORRECT! best of all, I have the first 2 classes with Melanie! so its like sophomore year ALL OVER AGAIN! hahaha! the worst part is that my NUMBER ONE HATER is in my sports therapy class. and this class is ALL YEAR long. oh well. she's going to have to deal with me! [: I TRY to fix things with her, but NO. she's being a little bitch about it. go ahead, act childish and blame ME for "me stealing your best friend". you know DAMN WELL that i didnt even do anything! I JUST ACTED MYSELF. is that so bad of a person to BE THEMSELF? geeeezus! be coo' with ya damn self.

LIES LIES LIES LIES!!

IM SO SICK OF YOUR LIES! i'm honestly so FED UP with the way you've been lying. its not just now that i noticed. its been like this SINCE I MET YOU LAST YEAR!! i mean if it wasnt for you, then i wouldnt really know the Summer School Faaam, but WTF. you just get CAUGHT UP waaaaaay too much with your lies! im hella tired of it! TELL THE FUCKIN' TRUTH FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFETIME! YOUR "FRIENDS" KNOW IT AND YOUR FAMILY KNOWS IT TOO! aside from lying all the damn time, you CONTINUE to F L A K E on people, including myself. the more you continue acting the way you do, people will start fading away from you. then who will you have? NO ONE because everyone would be TIRED of all the bullshit you put us through. HONESTLY. i'm not tryna be messed up or anything, its just the way I feel. so don't even try to get booty tickled if you read this. and don't act stupid. you know who you are.


Return of the Mack.mp3 song on my mind. reason? CAS I'M RETURNING BITCH! and im a M A C K! hahaha. you already know.

Take Care. One Love<3

Alexis<3

First Day of Spring.mp3

wow it has been forever and a day since i last posted up on this. sheeeeeesh soooooo much shit has been happening since my last post. ONCE AGAIN, im going through my depressed mood! ughhhh i fucking hate it soooooo much. im loosing my true/close friends by the fucking minute... im not even feeling it anymore... FUCK FREMONT. real talk. honestly i only have like 2 TRUE and REAL friends from here. niggas ask me why i dunn hang out with fremont people, its cas im not even that close with them anymore. People change and im not going to front, I KNOW I CHANGED. but its bettering MYSELF in MY life. *sigggggggggh* the past couple of days though, i honestly felt like my life was worthless. who knows... maybe it is.. my friendship with some people are really just dying. for SOME i honestly can say, I DO NOT FUCKING CARE. but for others, its just painful... but i guess friends come and go. my TRUE ones stay until the end.

OTHER THAN THAT...


Summer is here and im ready to mutha fuckin' party. i am in NEED to party hardy. especially with my BEST FRIEND JAYSON PEREZ! hahaha. let's get fucked up best friend! take me on your level! been kickin it with TEDDY&MELANIE. and let me say, THEY ARE THE TRUEST friends i can ever have in my life. BFFL ashley is still here for me. hands down. oh btw. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAAAAAAY ASHLEY! RIDE OR DIE UNTIL THE MUTHA FUCCCCCCCKIN' WHEELs FALL OFF!!! you already know.

i want someone to make me happy again...


First Day of Spring.mp3 obsessed with this song. it puts a smile on my face.

Take Care,
Alexis<3

Better Today.mp3

this past week i've been feeling all BLAHHHH.. its so hard to explain. i tried to talk it out, buhh its so difficult. i just dont know anymore.. Last night Barry took me & Bianca to Top Of The World. and honestly, if i were alone i would have just sat there, staring at the nice view, and cry... buhh its whatever. Valentines day was okay. kickin it with BFFLs, Kenneth, & Phillip. ughhhh i swear i hella hate feeling like this.. i thought i was passed all this.. i guess not. "/

Better Today.mp3 is the song on my mind. I was introduced to this song by Kevin and i fell in love with it.. Just listening to the beat of the song makes me feel all sad. buhh I cant help it...


I Just Wish Everything Was BETTER...

take Care!

Alexis(=