New Years Resolution..

all riggggght so the past couple days have been CHILL. like all the other days in my past. and tomorrow i'm off to RENO! once again. -_____-" hahaha. so EARLY HAPPY NEW YEARS! so anyways, this year has been an experience I would never forget. I had my ups & downs buhh i'm still holdin' it down. I became one of the head promoters for Bayfunktion, went to the TI concert, met Surpreme Soul numerous times, got close to A LOT of people, house parties, hotel parties, cotillions, SF trips, and lots and lots MORE. It was a pretty good year for me! (= I had my bad moments as well but I dont wanna mention any of them. So for the 2009 year I'm really willing to complete more than half of what my resolutions are.

001. Lose LBS.
002. ASHLEY KNOWS[:
003. Get a NEW job!
004. Try and get a 3.5 GPA Junior year.
005. Organize Cotillion entourage & dance 6 months ahead of time.
006. Keep room clean.
007. Not eat a lot of Junk Food.
008. Update my Journal more often.
009. Kickit with SILVERbruhhhh. (the only reason why i put this up is cas i havent seen him since i first met him, which was in 2005.)
010. Go to a Dance workshop with Jarrell[:
011. Maintain usage of my Cell Phone. (NO HIGH BILL!)
012. Grow out hair (ONLY TRIM ALLOWED!)
013. Have Fun(=
014. Take the SATs or ACTs.
015. Start applying for Colleges & Financial Aid.
016. TRY to kickit with Khanh more often.
017. NEED to go to a GS Warriors game with BFFL
018. Take written test at DMV
019. Learn how to DJ with kuya karl & bianca!
020. COMPLETE MORE THAN HALF OF THIS LIST!!! (=


thats all i can think of, so yeeeeeah. I better complete more than half! [:

...

so here's the deal.

The funktion was somewhat crackin'! i thought it was more CHILL. no i was not high! hahaha. we got MITCH&FROST from surpreme soul to go last minute. mitch remembers me from WOD! [: LOL. thats my boy you already know! my mom gave me, bianca, ashley, melanie, & chris a ride there. i met new promoters. saw people from school. they had fun for their first funktion. i met ALAN<33 omgggg. hella cute tho! hahaha. Chris Brown's twin! for real for real! he's a definite EYE CANDY ;] funktion ended got $$$ from lady p, bayfunktion lanyard[: & feet hurt super bad! hahaha. mom picked us up and teddy got a ride back as well. then mom bought all of us IN N OUT! ayeee! hahaha. spent like $40 in that bitch. dropped everyone home. went home ate. stupid late night drama shit with dumb ass people. done. i dont want them bitches in my life anymore. its all bullshit & stress for no damn reason.

PATRICK IS SLEEPING OVER THIS WEEKEND! i miss that nigga<33 going to Brentwood errr whaaa?!?! i d k. buhh it'll be a chill weekend!

CHRISTMAS felt like an ordinary day. nothing special. REAL TALK. i only got a jacket for Christmas. and i doubt i'll wear it anywhere. whatever. I'm done with the whole Christmas spirit. honestly. everything has changed. so i dont care anymore.

FINALLY the year 2008 is about to end. hella glad. only 3 more weeks until my birthday! hopefully its one i can be happy about. cas this years wasnt great. Major change in me for 2009? I HOPE SO! i'll still be the same girl tho, somewhat. i gotta try harder in school thats for sure. parents bitchin' over the quarter grades. whatever.

PARENTS GOING TO RENO & house to the sisters! ayeeee! i cant fuckin' wait. smoke weed feel high like its legit(= drrrrraaaaaank all night sleep all day! [: YOUALREADYKNOW!

Take A Bow..

I honestly think that I was so much happier when I was younger. I look in my past and the smile I would show had a meaning. This time, its different. I feel like everythings changed.. and theres no way to turn back. I wish that everything can just get back to normal. Late Night Phone Hypes with Khanh&Aj, trying to call Julian every weekend, kicking it with the BFFL Ashley more. It all just faded. I understand thats how life is, but I really hate it. I just feel so depressed. I wish I can be happy again. My NUMBER ONE Christmas wish is to be Happy again. To remember what its like to be infatuated with some guy or something. I d k. Maybe I'm trippin'. Maybe that everything thats happened to me was just meant to happen... ]:

WORST DAY EVER!

well lets kick back from last week. SORRY MY INTERNET HAS BEEN DOWN! anywho. Last friday i saw martin for the first time. i got to meet nick&calvin too. it was hella chill. i had fun. went to downtown SF and then HOOTERS(= on our way to hooters some crazy ass vietnamese fool was stalking us. CREEEEPY!! LOL. got home around 12 something. Chill weekend. went by fast.

THIS WEEK!
MONDAY. nothing really happend
TUESDAY. i ditched my 4th cas i didnt feel like going and i hung out with martin AGAIN! hahaha. he got me this hello kitty&blues clues wallet. hella cute tho! (=
WEDNESDAY. i hung out with martin AGAIN! hahaha. THIS TIME HE CAME DOWN HERE! i got my nails done & chilled. i went with him going back to $F cas i needed to do presale runs! (= once i got home nikkibaby came over and picked up presales then lady p came over and gave me MORE presales(= gahhhhh.
THURSDAY. made quesadillas in spanish 2! fabian can cook like dayummm! during lunch i felt sick so i went home. stressed over presales ]: lady p came over ONCE AGAIN and drop me off 4 more tickets! teehee. HAPPY 3 YEARS MAMA<33 RIP 121805 I MISS YOU!
FRIDAY. MARTIN FLAKED OUT ON ME... -_____-" not cool. stupid nick & calvin. ughhhh. i felt like shit after school tho. ]: i wanted to dieeeeee. like REAL TALK! if it wasnt for justin then i think i would have been dead by now. honestly i was about to go that low. justin feels that its just cas im on my period. LOL! and even tho i am THATS NOW THE REASON! i just felt like shittttt hella bad! aaaaand i wanted to kill myself! i've been SUPER stressed out the past few days and nothing seemed to help me. ]: i seriously hate my life. for real for real! ANYWAYS! i went to great mall after school. saw SOME D-A-D-D-I-E-$! youalreadyknow! ;] ohhh i saw tony again! yeeeeah! and kicked it with the wannabe d-pryde RUSSEL! hahaha. jk! ughhhh i want it to be SUNDAY ALREADY!

BAYFUNKTION TEEN EVENT THIS SUNDAY! MY BIRTHDAY BASH! I CANT FUCKIN' WAIT!!! (=
I'M ALMOST SOLD OUT OF PRESALES! YESSSSS!! i hate how the presales are stressin' me down too! )= buhh it'll all be worth it!! I THINK I FOUND MY OUTFIT! yeeeeeah! aaaaand IT CAN NEVER TOP ROCKETSHIP! me &melanie already know that! im in need to party!!! ;] twerk like theres no tomorrow!

Days gone by

FRIDAY. it seemed like a fast day. school was its boring self. and i hate it there. its like no one is as close as before. no one is hardly there. its not the same. after school was okay. went home. ended up NOT going to the viewing. cas it was "intermediate family" so it was okay. that night went to milpitas. Q-CUP. saw manry, alyssa, justin, & ryan jordan. freakin' RJ tried to steal my chicken! LOL. then went to dad's work & then union city. in-n-out & walmart. went home then to BFFL's house. LAST MINUTE sleep over. teehee. stayed up until 3 something in the am and woke up at 11. i love the talks i have with my BFFL. (=

SATURDAY. Janessa's 8th birthday party. it was cute. PACQUIAO SMASHED ON DE LA HOYA! TKO END OF 8TH ROUND! teehee. [: thats basically all that happend.

SUNDAY. JAYPEE FLAKED... Tito Mondang's viewing. it was okay. not all that great. i couldnt go up to see his face. i was too scared. honestly i hate death's. even when its someone i barely know. once we got home i uploaded all the pictures from the weekend. i was listening to music and i started to think about julian. his song "one i adore" was playing. i felt like crying my eyes out cas of how much i miss him. Yeah i always talk about him on here, but seriously i BARELY talk about him outloud. its too painful. i cant handle it. Deaths are suppose to make people happy, not sad. because it brings everyone closer and you know that person will forever be looking over you. the family started planning what we are doing to mama's 3 year death anniversary. i dont know if i can make it cas of rhea's cotillion. but the REAL date of her death ima go to church. thats for sure. i miss mama. i miss julian. i just want to see them ONE LAST TIME and tell them how much they mean to me. See you soon you guys. I'll be happy soon once I'm with you guys.

I feel like crap.

Winter brings out the laziness in everyone. it really does! with the cold weather it makes me want to stay home all day and sleep. NOT COOL! hahaha. so on monday i got this shot, actually 4. two on each arm. and the one on my left arm hurts like a bitch! it hurts hella bad!! ]: like i feel like ripping my arm off! uggggh.

anyways school is lame. i feel like not being there anymore. im so careless when it comes to school. teen event is 2 weeks away and i need to sell these damn presales! hahaha want one? [: kicking it with jaypee on sunday(= ayeee! hahaha. that fool hella flaked on me yesterday! LOSER. but its cooooool i love him to much to be mad at him. haha. and what he said earlier on the phone "dont forget sunday okay! NO FLAKING!" hahaha i should be telling HIM that! life is lame. feeling like shit constantly isnt really a good thing. but oh well. like sergio says "LIFE GOES ON." and mine shall go on.


VIEWING tomorrow for tito mondang. i hope edward, shane, and JP are okay. -___-" i hate funerals. its to sad. especially in december. Its almost been 3 years since mama left. WHY?! thats one question that will remain in my head until i leave everyone. I miss the way mama would tell me stories when she was in the Philippines. I miss the way she would sing "You are my sunshine" when i was younger. We miss you mama. The cousins miss you. Your kids miss you. I MISS YOU. i hope to see you soon<3

Walk Through Memory Lane.

Today i didnt go to school today because i hella did not feel good. My stomach is just hella actin' up. -___-" anywho i texted angie telling her i wasnt going to school and then we started talking about this thing we made back in 8th grade. EMO MEETS GANGSTUHH. est. 01.01.06. its been almost two years since our friendship became tighter and closer. and whoa those two years went by hella quick. On the real though, life is going by hella fast. Honestly if it weren't for my friends and family, i wouldnt be the person i am today. especially my BFFL, Ashley! on thanksgiving she texted me something hella sweet, and i felt hella appreciative. Like we seem total opposite but we really are alike in many ways. If she was never in my life, then mine would be hella different. or what she says "Without you, my life would be so blank!" teehee. There are some shit in the past that I still havent let go. The fact that I had my heart broken numerous times, or the fact that I lost many people I love. Its hard to face reality, especially when reality smacks you down like a pimp hitting his bitch! teehee. jk. but for real, yeah life is complicated but I guess we all have to deal with it.


Anyways! the party on saturday, CRAZY! Melanie&I seriously pulled an all nighter.. like no sleep at all that day! We would like close our eyes for like a minute or two, but we were awake all day! Lol. Well we met up with Misty&Vanessa at El Cerrito Del Norte and went to Jollibee. It was so weird cas we were sitting at the corner table and when we were about to leave Melanie noticed that the guy sitting near me, who was on his laptop, was looking at some SEX SITE! hahaha. after Jollibee we went to Misty's house and chilled for like 30-45 minutes or so? Then it was off to Edrick's house! and let me tell you! his house is hella crackin'! haha. We went to help out even though there was nothing to help out with! so we went to safeway and got some drinks for the bartender. we chilled until everyone came and it was pretty fun. Dancing with a strobe light is fun, yet scary.. teehee. it was hard finding a ride home, cas i forgot to tell misty to take us home early! buhh mel&I eventually found a ride home. The party was DOPE. i had major fun. kicked it with Norman! My "Eagle1" SHHHHH(= hahaha. and Melanie took my phone and texted Elijah[: oh my gawwwwd such a fuckin' EYE CANDY ;] hahaha. He is our PAPI CHULO(= hahaha. That party was a night to remember. I can't wait until the next time I'ma see them.




Also, Rest In Paradise Tito Mondang! Even though I barely saw you around, you meant a lot to Shane, Edward, and JP. Watch over them for me[:

and Rest In Paradise to Nicolen's DAD! 11.30.08 I'm here for you girl! My condolences to you and your family.