Days gone by

FRIDAY. it seemed like a fast day. school was its boring self. and i hate it there. its like no one is as close as before. no one is hardly there. its not the same. after school was okay. went home. ended up NOT going to the viewing. cas it was "intermediate family" so it was okay. that night went to milpitas. Q-CUP. saw manry, alyssa, justin, & ryan jordan. freakin' RJ tried to steal my chicken! LOL. then went to dad's work & then union city. in-n-out & walmart. went home then to BFFL's house. LAST MINUTE sleep over. teehee. stayed up until 3 something in the am and woke up at 11. i love the talks i have with my BFFL. (=

SATURDAY. Janessa's 8th birthday party. it was cute. PACQUIAO SMASHED ON DE LA HOYA! TKO END OF 8TH ROUND! teehee. [: thats basically all that happend.

SUNDAY. JAYPEE FLAKED... Tito Mondang's viewing. it was okay. not all that great. i couldnt go up to see his face. i was too scared. honestly i hate death's. even when its someone i barely know. once we got home i uploaded all the pictures from the weekend. i was listening to music and i started to think about julian. his song "one i adore" was playing. i felt like crying my eyes out cas of how much i miss him. Yeah i always talk about him on here, but seriously i BARELY talk about him outloud. its too painful. i cant handle it. Deaths are suppose to make people happy, not sad. because it brings everyone closer and you know that person will forever be looking over you. the family started planning what we are doing to mama's 3 year death anniversary. i dont know if i can make it cas of rhea's cotillion. but the REAL date of her death ima go to church. thats for sure. i miss mama. i miss julian. i just want to see them ONE LAST TIME and tell them how much they mean to me. See you soon you guys. I'll be happy soon once I'm with you guys.