If I Ain't Got You.mp3

its been a week since i last wrote in here. there's been SO MUCH on my mind. its not even funny. i felt so depressed the past few days. and i honestly dont know why.. like i feel like my life is just a lie. like there is no point of me being here. but then i wanna prove myself wrong and show myself that i have a reason why i am here. *sigh* i dont even know anymore. its all whatever to me now. i'm getting over a lot of things.

SLOWLY getting over it. BFFL leyy&Angie know what im talking about. i dont have the patience to get lead on and waste my time on some nigga. so i'll just concentrate on my life, school, fam bizz, friends, and COTILLION! i fell somewhat hard for this guy, buhh its in the process of him just being another guy who could have been.

SPEAKING of my cotillion, its back & in action! haha. at first my mom was like "NO YOUR NOT GOING TO HAVE IT!" then yesterday she just said "okay start planning it!" hahaha. so i cant wait for that. I know that it'll be stressful. so im tryna plan my shit ahead of time. just so it wont be AS stressful. the theme color will be SKY BLUE(= like Cinderella. and i'm going to be gathering my entourage ASAP. cas i know people will tend to flake. so whoever i chose for my entourage, be prepared! i got 11 months and i cant waaaait! its about to be crackin'! and it'll be held at Milpitas City Hall.

If I Ain't Got You.mp3 cutest song ever. Thinks about love and all that gushy stuff. oh so valentine's day. "/ no valentine this year i guess... oh well. i guess he wasn't worth the wait. its all goooood. i'm satisfied with how things are going. kickit day with BFFLs on valentine's day? girls night out? i believe so! (=

until then TAKE CARE & ONE LOVE<3

-Alexis

Make You Say.mp3

so i noticed I haven't blogged in a while. so I decided to take the time to fill you in on what's been going on. so on the 24th i went to BFFL ley's house. and we was just kickin' it, when phillip told me that he was comin' down to the area. although I was hella jank, me and ashley had nothing better to do, so we met up with chris&phillip. chill day. throughout the week it was just finals & whatnot. I didnt get to go to the library buhh i did study. sorta. I barely passed algebra 2/trig with a C-. i was hella happy, you dont even know! hahaha. i d k what i got in english. buhh i passed my other classes.

013109 was the CHILLEST day of the year! hahaha. for real though! that week, Phillip&I were planning a kickit day. and thought it was going to be postponed. buhh last minute it was back on. originally it was supposed to be BFFL ley, chris, Phillip, & me. then me&leyy found out that Nicole was coming down. so we added her along. then Angelo became a last minute person coming cas the BFFLs needed a ride. around 5:30-ish Chris&Phillip picked me up from the crib and we jetted off to great mall. met up with the BFFLs & angelo. at first i thought it was going to be hella weird and all. buhh we all opened up pretty quick. from "HE LOOKS LIKE SISQO!" to "THIS IS HOW WHITE GUYS DANCE AT MY SCHOOL!" it was hella fun. jumpin from great mall to newpark. SPEEDING on the fuckin' freeway! stupid angelo&phillip.. hahaha to Phillip's cute bitch fit. finishing with the kickit at my crib. the guys TRYNA play basketball and the girls just laughing over stupidity. HAHA! finally ending it off with the CAMERA-WHORING we did. bending over, making stupid faces. PRICELESS! i wouldnt mind living that day again. (=

I STILL FEEL BAD, cas now Phillip is on lockdown ]: and going to miss out on Valentine's day! hahaha. its cooooool tho! we still talk DAILY! like always.. haha we tryna plan out our next kickit day! hahaha. even though he's on lockdown, when he's off, its going to be poppin'! you already know!!


NEW CLASSES started today. for those who dont know my schedule:
US History- Kinkler
Geometry- Irish
Chemistry- G.
Ohlone Psychology- Throckmorton.

I have a good hand full of people i'm cool with in all my classes. It was an okay day today too. not that great. hard to text in the classes... -___-" hahaha. buhh oh well. I hella gotta study my ass off this term. real talk. i gotta aim for higher expectations. so lets get it crackin'! (=

Make You Say.mp3 been on my mind for a while. "I ain't got no reason to do you wrong, so let me do you right." FAVORITE<333 Phillip stole it from me! hahaha hella feelin' it tho! but honestly, just slow jams in general got me goin' (= i still have that piece of eye candy on my mind. buhh still takin' it slow. feelme? its going greeeeat. life aint going that bad, aint that somethin?! LOL.


that's all I can say for this update! (=



TAKE CARE, ONE LOVE<3

Something Special.mp3

The week went by SLOW. I expected it to go fast, especially since we didnt have school on monday. Tuesday was boring, there was barely people at school. Wednesday was bad. After school was just stressful thaaaaangs with my fambizz. I haven't cried like that in a while.. THANKS PHILLIP for being there for me(= I had 3 classes with NOFs in them. which was bullshit. I wasn't even failing spanish 2. I improved hella much in algebra 2. again, THANKS PHILLIP for pushing me to study[: haha. I got 100% on my algebra 2/trig test! MY FIRST 100% PAPER ALL YEAR! Those 2 1/2 hours of studying paid off really good! Finals are next week. Thursday will be 1st & 2nd block, then Friday will be 3rd & 4th. A year and a half left, and i'll be out! haha. i just need to hang in there. I'm planning on going to the Fremont library on Tuesday and/or Wednesday. studying my ass off for the finals! Honestly, I CANNOT afford to fail any classes.

Something Special.mp3 has been playing over and over in my head all day today! It made me think about a lot. I guess I was right, I am starting to crush on this guy(= Veebabe says he's too good to let go, so I'm going to try my hardest not to let him go. All I need to do is take things slow. The friendship we created is cute(= He makes me laugh&smile. Only time can tell what will happen.


TAKE CARE!

More Than Friends.mp3

So the past couple days have been chill. The day after my birthday, my mom got sick from eating at BJ's, same with my dad. During school I started feeling all sick so during lunch I went home. When school ended my mom & I picked up bianca and went to the J-Cruz Crib! Those girls are something(= after we went home & EJ came over. I just fell asleep and that was the end of my night!

Saturday, Me&Bianca went to Great America for the Re-Hire thaaaang thaaaang. I have to wait until they call me back... UGHHHHH. I NEED TO FIND A NEW JOB! real talk! i think i might go job hunting on wednesday... anyways, after we went to GREAT MALL. we ate and met up with Kuya Karl! we went to watch NOTORIOUS! hella rawwww. Bianca cried at the end. It was funny. "I D K WHY IM CRYING IF I ALREADY KNOW THAT HE DIED AT THE END!!" lol. and when kuya karl goes "WE SHOULD TELL THE PEOPLE IN LINE THAT AT THE END OF NOTORIOUS, HE DIES AT THE END!" hahahaha. stupid ass. but i LOVE HIMMM! after the movie we walked around the mall. Kuya got bianca a jacket from H&M, HonHon a TWLOHA shirt, & ME two Bob Marley shirts! haha. he's so cool(= I also got my two Still-Us shirts from DJ! (= hella niceeee.

More Than Friends.mp3 has been the song on my mind for the past week. Its basically how I feel about someone. Angie&Ashley know all about him. Ateh Shan just recently found out. DONT TRIP! I'm taking this shit ONE STEP AT A TIME. All I gotta say is that he's different & he makes me smile A LOT(=

until then,


TAKE CARE!

Change Your Life.mp3

BACK UP TO YESTERDAY!
011409. The Parents surprised me with tickets to the warriors game. Apparently everyone knew except me! I went to Rizza, Patrick, & Joey. Golden State Warriors vs. Sacramento Kings. TRIPLE OVERTIME 133-135. LOST BY 2! It was a good game & a great way to start off my birthday! Corey Maggette was fuckin' garbage! but still cute! [:

12AM Khanh Nguyen was the first to call me(= and his call was very special to me. We have a close friendship but its not like before. I was hella surprised he called me EXACTLY at 12, or the fact that he even remembered. I haven't seen Khanh since last summer and I miss him so much! haha. I know you had finals today Khanh, so sorry that you had to stay up just for me! I love you loser!!! [:

At school today, Me&Bianca "dressed up". haha Not hella hella, but it was descent compared to regular days. Chelsea designed my locker & I got Balloons, flowers, & home made brownies. THEY WERE HELLA GOOD! SERGIO&ALAINA hella surprised me at school today. Assholes said they weren't going! but it was cool(= The Fambizz including Angie&Ashley, went to BJ's! It wasnt that great. The dessert was good though, but the hostess was a bitch. haha!

Anyways another year, a new age. I'm done with the sweet & sour 16, and off to better things. Throughout the entire 2008 year I felt like I accomplished a lot of social activities. I'm ready to challenge myself and go through struggles no matter what comes towards me. So life here I come, because I'm not going to let anything tear me down.

POEMS FROM THE COOLEST GUY ALMAR[:

THE BIRTHDAY POEM:
There's always that one SPECIAL day in the year
It'll make you so happy you'll probably shead a tear
This day is your Birthday
Hey its your own special holiday
There's so many things you can say
on your birthday
You celebrate with your loved ones
There isnt a day thats more special
ahah forget the poem Happy Birthday alexis

-Almar

LIFE:

Life is like a remote
when we're bored we want to fast forward time
when we regret something
we wish we can rewind time
when were having fun
we want to pause at the time of the moment
but no matter what my life is always on play because i continue my life

-Almar.

Change You Life.mp3 is the song for the moment. I regret some stuff in my life that I wish I can change, but I cant. If it wasn't for my past then I wouldnt be living my life now in the present. I can always decide how to make my future right. Choosing the right way instead of wrong, but if I chose wrong then I correct my mistake and move on with my life.

That's all I have to say. Good Night. One Love<3


TAKE CARE!

Sexy Love.mp3

Today was a GOOD day! (= i liked it. It went by pretty slow though. I was ALL SMILES throughout most of my classes. [: teehee. I passed my algebra 2 test! I was so happy. I'm still not doing that good in that class. ughhhh. I gotta study my ass off next week. real talk. especially with the finals coming in closer.

Sexy Love.mp3 is the song for the day. [: Look back into the past, this song always made me smile. Plus it makes me think about a certain someone. Nothings happening YET. Taking it one step at a time(=

TAKE CARE!

Always On My Mind.mp3

So I've noticed that its been a while since I last blogged. and A LOT has been happening. Let's go back a few days! For New Years I was in Reno. It was fun. i went go-karting, played laser tag, and baby sat the J_Cruz girls! The remainder of my break was just staying at home. By the time we went back to school I felt more lazy as the days passed by. Honestly, I'm just so tired of going through the same thing everyday. I need some excitement in my life! On January 10th, I went to the movies with Phillip, Norman, & Bianca. We watched GRAN TORINO. And i must say it's a really good movie! I didnt expect to like it as much as I really do. School has been a DRAG. With finals coming up in 2 weeks, I need to hit the books! I think sometime next week I'm going to the city library and study. NO JOKE! Because my grades aren't so pretty.

The past few days I've been feeling like I'm a failure in life. People will tell me I'm not, but its just so hard to believe. I want to proove people wrong, but how can I? A lot has been on my mind, but its just so hard to express how I feel to other people. Its not that I have trust issues or anything, because I'm pretty open. Yet this particular subject stays closed n my mind & it hurts. Oh well, Life goes on.

Recently, someone contacted me, who I've tried to contact for the longest time. KAYE! Thanks for contacting me! Honestly, you don't even know how happy I was when I read that comment you left me. We HAVE to keep in touch(=

Always On My Mind.mp3 is the song stuck in my head. Is there a guy who entered my life? WE'LL SEE!teehee. It'll be nice to be in that Cupcake Status again(= but I really do hope that I find myself a VALENTINE this year!


Until then, take care!