No More.mp3

101709 Angie's cotillion. it was fun! made me miss the old days so much. it sorta felt like a reunion. the 8th grade fam. i noticed how much EVERYONE changed. maybe its for the better? but who knows? i glad we all got together that night for Angie. happy 18th ange. <3

101909. two days from now its going to be Julian's 21st birthday... only him to be celebrating it with GOD & everyone else in heaven. this year is about to be Julian's 2 years since he died. and honestly its affected me so much. i feel empty inside. like i can't rely on anyone anymore. it hurts. i wish i could have said something before he left. a GOODBYE or HEY! I MISS YOU! but i didnt... the crazy part apart of this whole experience with Julian's death... is the morning i found out he died, i called him. i woke up around 6 am and called him... i dont know why. i just did. only to find a few minutes later that he had passed away... and it struck my heart and ripped it into two. i just miss Julian so much. always telling me how his phone is broken, or how his mic was broken so he couldnt make a new song. haha. man oh man. keep lookin' down on me please?

I honestly think im losing one of my bestest friends... we dont talk. you stopped caring. WHY? all cas of your STUPID ASS BITCH OF A BOYFRIEND. I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE HIM WITH A PASSION. i dont know why your still with him when he's SO direspectful. but whatever. its your choice. i tried to help you out so many times.. when he HURTS you once again, BEST BELIEVE i WONT be there for you... I PROMISE THAT. im tired of you always leaning on me when he hurts you. you KNOW that i helped you with all i can, you just DONT CARE to listen. so IM DONE. we barely talk anyways, and you didnt even bother to talk to me at Angie's party. so it doesnt matter. i guess your done too.

COTILLION IS BACK... ONCE AGAIN. -_______-" my parents need to start making up their mind maaaaaaan!

No More.mp3 to me, the song is saying NO MORE HURTING. Tired of all the games happening. blah blah blah. i just wish things will start getting better. cas right now it feels like its all going downhill ]:

Closer To My Dreams.mp3

BAYFUNKTION ENT. IS BACK IN FRI$KO F. BAAAAAABY! im super STOKED! i know its about to be hella crackin! i rather ditch Homecoming to go to a funktion[:



Closer To My Dreams.mp3 favorite songggggg. its really inspirational!

Return of the Mack.mp3

so it REALLY has been a long ass time since i wrote in this blog! i just been so damn busy or tired! FEEDBACK! SUMMER '09 was SOMEWHAT one of the best summers i've had in my lifetime. nothing can top SUMMER '05 though. anyways, i met some of the most amazing people. the Summer School Faaam! [: we would just kickit all the time after summer school and just chill. hella funnnnn. A. MTB! was the bestest shit thats ever happened. Alexis, Melanie, Teddy, & Bianca. hands down we're the most REALEST people you'll ever meet in your life. from going to Great America together to BBQ'ing at the house, we always manage to have a fun time. just how life is, there are a lot of UPs&DOWNs. but stuff i won't even mention.


PRESENT DAY!

SEN10R year had started! so far i have easy classes!

1st block: Weight Training
2nd block: Leadership
3rd block: Intro To Statistics
4th block: Sports Therapy

easy right? CORRECT! best of all, I have the first 2 classes with Melanie! so its like sophomore year ALL OVER AGAIN! hahaha! the worst part is that my NUMBER ONE HATER is in my sports therapy class. and this class is ALL YEAR long. oh well. she's going to have to deal with me! [: I TRY to fix things with her, but NO. she's being a little bitch about it. go ahead, act childish and blame ME for "me stealing your best friend". you know DAMN WELL that i didnt even do anything! I JUST ACTED MYSELF. is that so bad of a person to BE THEMSELF? geeeezus! be coo' with ya damn self.

LIES LIES LIES LIES!!

IM SO SICK OF YOUR LIES! i'm honestly so FED UP with the way you've been lying. its not just now that i noticed. its been like this SINCE I MET YOU LAST YEAR!! i mean if it wasnt for you, then i wouldnt really know the Summer School Faaam, but WTF. you just get CAUGHT UP waaaaaay too much with your lies! im hella tired of it! TELL THE FUCKIN' TRUTH FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFETIME! YOUR "FRIENDS" KNOW IT AND YOUR FAMILY KNOWS IT TOO! aside from lying all the damn time, you CONTINUE to F L A K E on people, including myself. the more you continue acting the way you do, people will start fading away from you. then who will you have? NO ONE because everyone would be TIRED of all the bullshit you put us through. HONESTLY. i'm not tryna be messed up or anything, its just the way I feel. so don't even try to get booty tickled if you read this. and don't act stupid. you know who you are.


Return of the Mack.mp3 song on my mind. reason? CAS I'M RETURNING BITCH! and im a M A C K! hahaha. you already know.

Take Care. One Love<3

Alexis<3

First Day of Spring.mp3

wow it has been forever and a day since i last posted up on this. sheeeeeesh soooooo much shit has been happening since my last post. ONCE AGAIN, im going through my depressed mood! ughhhh i fucking hate it soooooo much. im loosing my true/close friends by the fucking minute... im not even feeling it anymore... FUCK FREMONT. real talk. honestly i only have like 2 TRUE and REAL friends from here. niggas ask me why i dunn hang out with fremont people, its cas im not even that close with them anymore. People change and im not going to front, I KNOW I CHANGED. but its bettering MYSELF in MY life. *sigggggggggh* the past couple of days though, i honestly felt like my life was worthless. who knows... maybe it is.. my friendship with some people are really just dying. for SOME i honestly can say, I DO NOT FUCKING CARE. but for others, its just painful... but i guess friends come and go. my TRUE ones stay until the end.

OTHER THAN THAT...


Summer is here and im ready to mutha fuckin' party. i am in NEED to party hardy. especially with my BEST FRIEND JAYSON PEREZ! hahaha. let's get fucked up best friend! take me on your level! been kickin it with TEDDY&MELANIE. and let me say, THEY ARE THE TRUEST friends i can ever have in my life. BFFL ashley is still here for me. hands down. oh btw. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAAAAAAY ASHLEY! RIDE OR DIE UNTIL THE MUTHA FUCCCCCCCKIN' WHEELs FALL OFF!!! you already know.

i want someone to make me happy again...


First Day of Spring.mp3 obsessed with this song. it puts a smile on my face.

Take Care,
Alexis<3

Better Today.mp3

this past week i've been feeling all BLAHHHH.. its so hard to explain. i tried to talk it out, buhh its so difficult. i just dont know anymore.. Last night Barry took me & Bianca to Top Of The World. and honestly, if i were alone i would have just sat there, staring at the nice view, and cry... buhh its whatever. Valentines day was okay. kickin it with BFFLs, Kenneth, & Phillip. ughhhh i swear i hella hate feeling like this.. i thought i was passed all this.. i guess not. "/

Better Today.mp3 is the song on my mind. I was introduced to this song by Kevin and i fell in love with it.. Just listening to the beat of the song makes me feel all sad. buhh I cant help it...


I Just Wish Everything Was BETTER...

take Care!

Alexis(=

If I Ain't Got You.mp3

its been a week since i last wrote in here. there's been SO MUCH on my mind. its not even funny. i felt so depressed the past few days. and i honestly dont know why.. like i feel like my life is just a lie. like there is no point of me being here. but then i wanna prove myself wrong and show myself that i have a reason why i am here. *sigh* i dont even know anymore. its all whatever to me now. i'm getting over a lot of things.

SLOWLY getting over it. BFFL leyy&Angie know what im talking about. i dont have the patience to get lead on and waste my time on some nigga. so i'll just concentrate on my life, school, fam bizz, friends, and COTILLION! i fell somewhat hard for this guy, buhh its in the process of him just being another guy who could have been.

SPEAKING of my cotillion, its back & in action! haha. at first my mom was like "NO YOUR NOT GOING TO HAVE IT!" then yesterday she just said "okay start planning it!" hahaha. so i cant wait for that. I know that it'll be stressful. so im tryna plan my shit ahead of time. just so it wont be AS stressful. the theme color will be SKY BLUE(= like Cinderella. and i'm going to be gathering my entourage ASAP. cas i know people will tend to flake. so whoever i chose for my entourage, be prepared! i got 11 months and i cant waaaait! its about to be crackin'! and it'll be held at Milpitas City Hall.

If I Ain't Got You.mp3 cutest song ever. Thinks about love and all that gushy stuff. oh so valentine's day. "/ no valentine this year i guess... oh well. i guess he wasn't worth the wait. its all goooood. i'm satisfied with how things are going. kickit day with BFFLs on valentine's day? girls night out? i believe so! (=

until then TAKE CARE & ONE LOVE<3

-Alexis

Make You Say.mp3

so i noticed I haven't blogged in a while. so I decided to take the time to fill you in on what's been going on. so on the 24th i went to BFFL ley's house. and we was just kickin' it, when phillip told me that he was comin' down to the area. although I was hella jank, me and ashley had nothing better to do, so we met up with chris&phillip. chill day. throughout the week it was just finals & whatnot. I didnt get to go to the library buhh i did study. sorta. I barely passed algebra 2/trig with a C-. i was hella happy, you dont even know! hahaha. i d k what i got in english. buhh i passed my other classes.

013109 was the CHILLEST day of the year! hahaha. for real though! that week, Phillip&I were planning a kickit day. and thought it was going to be postponed. buhh last minute it was back on. originally it was supposed to be BFFL ley, chris, Phillip, & me. then me&leyy found out that Nicole was coming down. so we added her along. then Angelo became a last minute person coming cas the BFFLs needed a ride. around 5:30-ish Chris&Phillip picked me up from the crib and we jetted off to great mall. met up with the BFFLs & angelo. at first i thought it was going to be hella weird and all. buhh we all opened up pretty quick. from "HE LOOKS LIKE SISQO!" to "THIS IS HOW WHITE GUYS DANCE AT MY SCHOOL!" it was hella fun. jumpin from great mall to newpark. SPEEDING on the fuckin' freeway! stupid angelo&phillip.. hahaha to Phillip's cute bitch fit. finishing with the kickit at my crib. the guys TRYNA play basketball and the girls just laughing over stupidity. HAHA! finally ending it off with the CAMERA-WHORING we did. bending over, making stupid faces. PRICELESS! i wouldnt mind living that day again. (=

I STILL FEEL BAD, cas now Phillip is on lockdown ]: and going to miss out on Valentine's day! hahaha. its cooooool tho! we still talk DAILY! like always.. haha we tryna plan out our next kickit day! hahaha. even though he's on lockdown, when he's off, its going to be poppin'! you already know!!


NEW CLASSES started today. for those who dont know my schedule:
US History- Kinkler
Geometry- Irish
Chemistry- G.
Ohlone Psychology- Throckmorton.

I have a good hand full of people i'm cool with in all my classes. It was an okay day today too. not that great. hard to text in the classes... -___-" hahaha. buhh oh well. I hella gotta study my ass off this term. real talk. i gotta aim for higher expectations. so lets get it crackin'! (=

Make You Say.mp3 been on my mind for a while. "I ain't got no reason to do you wrong, so let me do you right." FAVORITE<333 Phillip stole it from me! hahaha hella feelin' it tho! but honestly, just slow jams in general got me goin' (= i still have that piece of eye candy on my mind. buhh still takin' it slow. feelme? its going greeeeat. life aint going that bad, aint that somethin?! LOL.


that's all I can say for this update! (=



TAKE CARE, ONE LOVE<3